Groove is in the Heart

Attention: World

There are moments when I often realize na I'm really alone. Brought about by the circumstance of having a queer stepmother, my sister and I have chosen to live our own independent lives.

However, my sister is happily married with 2 kids and a loving, hard-working husband. She moved out of home since 1998.

Meanwhile, I am still a striving 31-yr old single woman with 4 dogs and 2 companions in which I now call my own home. My life in general is basically peaceful and quiet. I have my own privacy, my own time and my own space.

Sometimes lang, when the world is not too busy, para bang he wants to whisper in my ear as pang-asar na tipong "Din, mag-isa ka lang talaga for now. Wala ka nang pamilya."

No Sunday mass with family. No Sunday brunches. No Saturday afternoon hangs with Daddy. No weekends getaways in Majayjay. No Christmas Eve opening of the gifts. No New Year's Eve fireworks. No noche buenas/media noches. No Sunday family dinners. No birthday dinners with family. No holy week trips with family. No family.

I don't intend to sound kawawa or pitiful. I'm just stating a fact. Eh ganun talaga ang life eh. So I say to you, world: "I'm cool. I'll laugh at you din one day pag nakabuo na ko ng sarili kong family - one that nobody can take away from me. One that I will build and call my own. But for now, chill pill lang muna ko ha?"

posted by Groove is in the Heart @ 1:48 PM